Today is day 40 of my cycle. I have taken 3 pregnancy tests, so I am fairly certain I am not pregnant. (Also: No symptoms)
I have to confess something: my husband doesn't really want another baby. I know he doesn't. When I say we are TTC all I am doing is not taking birth control, and we have sex. That is all. Oh, we did use pre seed one month, but he didn't know what it was for. He just thought it was kinky or something (sorry!). He doesn't really want a baby. I keep track of my cycles, but I don't even know if I'm ovulating. I guess what I'm saying is, I have put zero effort into this babymaking thing, and that makes me wonder how badly I really want a baby?
I will probably go back on the pill after this cycle is over. Honestly, I'm OK with it. I just don't think it was meant to be.
